CBD - My Experience with Depression

Have you heard of CBD fluid? Unless you have been living under a rock then you probably have, but what is it, what is it for, and why should you try it? I can’t promise to have all the answers to those questions or others you might have. However, I will go through how I came to try CBD fluid and what I discovered when I did.

Depression runs in the family.

I have had issues with depression on an off throughout most of my adult life. My father suffered with a major depressive disorder, although his went unacknowledged and untreated except for with Twinkies. Postpartum, seasonal affective disorder, and why do people just suck depressions have hit me at various times in my life. I would usually self medicate with food until I took up running. Which I fell in love with the feeling of running every day.

I had been having some pretty unpleasant health issues for a little over a year. It started with one seemingly insignificant cold and then snowballed into a roaring avalanche of shit beyond my control. Without going into too much detail, these issues replaced my daily outdoor runs with prescription medications and sadness. I was depressed, gaining weight in a way that felt like it was normal to wake up and weigh more than yesterday. After a while I was able to get off the medications. My healthy and active lifestyle were waiting for my triumphant return. Yet I was still not myself and I couldn’t figure out how to get back to her again. I hated looking in the mirror, hated getting dressed. I just wanted to go back to bed.

I quit my full time job. I took a position that was significantly less stressful but the financial toll was another depressing hurdle to overcome. Even though I reduced my stress level I still felt stuck. I would lay awake at night wondering what I should do? Did I even have the strength to do what needed to be done? I just couldn’t seem to get out of my own way. I hated myself for letting this happen.

Then a friend mentioned she had tried CBD fluid for her migraines and she swore it was a miracle worker.

I have always been a believer in plant based medicine. I have witnessed too many accounts of natural treatments often being not only more effective but with a million less side effects. So I was curious, could CBD help me with my depression? I clicked on the link she sent me. To be honest I was a little concerned about the price at first but figured it was worth a shot because I didn’t want any more prescription pills. So I put a bottle in my cart and hit checkout, $110 later I received the email confirmation that my order was submitted.

Here we go.

I was so excited when it arrived! I opened up the box and saw this tiny little bottle. Well my little miracle worker, show me what you’ve got. Just two drops under the tongue, hmmm, that doesn’t seem like much but ok. Oh My God is tastes like I am drinking hemp! WOW that was a strong flavor, I should have had water ready to drink! Washed it down and then thought to myself, “I don’t feel anything”. To be honest I am not sure what I expected to feel instantly. I guess I thought it would be like taking a hit off a bong. It wasn’t at all. I literally felt nothing. The rational side of me then realized that it would take time. Like every other medication I have ever needed, the results aren’t usually instant. So I kept doing it.

Four weeks later.

Suddenly it dawned on me that I was sleeping like a rock, every damn night. My dreams were returning. Side note: I am a strong Empath and my dreams have always been a guide for me, when depression hits I struggle with insomnia and they disappear. Now that I was getting better sleep I felt more rested during the day, more energetic and focused. I felt like running again. I want to purge my house all Marie Kondo style, I will update you on that project in another post. CBD fluid has given me my life back. I no longer feel depressed or like I am helpless in my situation. I feel like me again. I am so thankful for CBD. My friend was right, it is a miracle worker.